Kate
New member
December 1st
I've always been the type to want to write things down; especially my thoughts and feelings and what is going on in life.
Well, I'm fourteen now and I'm taking on the world; or so it seems to me.
My name is Hailey Rives, I have one sister, Emma, and four brothers; Matthew, Damien, Brett, and Josh. I'm the youngest, save Josh, but even so, I still feel like the baby of the family a lot of the time.
Matthew is not well. He's in Hospital now. Mum and Dad had to bring him back home from University to look over him. We've been told he has an illness called lymphoma. It's a Cancer.
Everyone is putting on a brave face but if anyone else feels like I do, we are crying inside.
Mum and Dad are at Hospital most the time. Emma has taken charge even though Brett is older, and Damien is alone at University now, trying to finish his courses.
Everyone says our family would be lost without Emma. She apparently holds our family together. Emma gets a lot of attention. Especially since last summer when she lost almost 32 kilos. She and Mum diet together all the time. Everyone says Emma is like Second Mum. Like she can substitute. But she's not Mum.
I don't like life right now, if I'm to be honest. I'm scared and lonely and sad. I love Matthew. He's the oldest and he's always understood me better than anyone else in the world. I want him to get better, and with him in Hospital, my fears and thoughts feel like they are drowning me sometimes. I spend a lot of time in my room, alone. I don't always want to play like everything's alright. Because it isn't, is it? The whole world's been turned upside down but no one wants to talk about it.
I've been taking to writing stories and chatting with other people on the internet. I think it helps to be able to share fictional realities with strangers and escape the real world for a little while. I've gotten a lot of positive comments on my writings, and I'm making friends. That's where I can talk about things, in chat rooms and forums. That's where I can say what's really happening in life and not pretend to be strong. I wish I could do something to make everything better. I feel so powerless.
Mum and Dad pulled us out of school a few years ago so that Mum could take over our studies at home. She's a good instructor but I miss my friends and getting away from home so often. I liked being able to spend more time with Matt when he was home but now that he's back in Hospital I hardly see him at all. I did get to visit him once; it was terrifying. He didn't look well at all. The treatment he's being given for his illness is killing his liver as well. I pray all the time that God would heal my big brother, make him well again. I spend a lot of time reading my Bible by the window in my room. I like to see the moon and the stars at night, but I also spend a lot of time watching the rain. It's been a very cold and wet autumn and winter this year.
I've always been the type to want to write things down; especially my thoughts and feelings and what is going on in life.
Well, I'm fourteen now and I'm taking on the world; or so it seems to me.
My name is Hailey Rives, I have one sister, Emma, and four brothers; Matthew, Damien, Brett, and Josh. I'm the youngest, save Josh, but even so, I still feel like the baby of the family a lot of the time.
Matthew is not well. He's in Hospital now. Mum and Dad had to bring him back home from University to look over him. We've been told he has an illness called lymphoma. It's a Cancer.
Everyone is putting on a brave face but if anyone else feels like I do, we are crying inside.
Mum and Dad are at Hospital most the time. Emma has taken charge even though Brett is older, and Damien is alone at University now, trying to finish his courses.
Everyone says our family would be lost without Emma. She apparently holds our family together. Emma gets a lot of attention. Especially since last summer when she lost almost 32 kilos. She and Mum diet together all the time. Everyone says Emma is like Second Mum. Like she can substitute. But she's not Mum.
I don't like life right now, if I'm to be honest. I'm scared and lonely and sad. I love Matthew. He's the oldest and he's always understood me better than anyone else in the world. I want him to get better, and with him in Hospital, my fears and thoughts feel like they are drowning me sometimes. I spend a lot of time in my room, alone. I don't always want to play like everything's alright. Because it isn't, is it? The whole world's been turned upside down but no one wants to talk about it.
I've been taking to writing stories and chatting with other people on the internet. I think it helps to be able to share fictional realities with strangers and escape the real world for a little while. I've gotten a lot of positive comments on my writings, and I'm making friends. That's where I can talk about things, in chat rooms and forums. That's where I can say what's really happening in life and not pretend to be strong. I wish I could do something to make everything better. I feel so powerless.
Mum and Dad pulled us out of school a few years ago so that Mum could take over our studies at home. She's a good instructor but I miss my friends and getting away from home so often. I liked being able to spend more time with Matt when he was home but now that he's back in Hospital I hardly see him at all. I did get to visit him once; it was terrifying. He didn't look well at all. The treatment he's being given for his illness is killing his liver as well. I pray all the time that God would heal my big brother, make him well again. I spend a lot of time reading my Bible by the window in my room. I like to see the moon and the stars at night, but I also spend a lot of time watching the rain. It's been a very cold and wet autumn and winter this year.